Eventually, things started
getting better, but I was still upset. But today, I watched a video of Taylor
Swift, and one of the lines in her song, was:
“Don’t you worry your
pretty little mind, people throw rocks at things that SHINE!!!”
I started thinking, maybe
I’ll never know WHY she said the things she did, but I realized that I was
looking at it the wrong way. Yes, bullying is wrong, and very serious, and NO,
nothing will ever excuse the things she said, but I’ve spent almost 3 years
being too mad at her to move on... that’s just wrong!!! God says to forgive,
and until now, I haven’t been WILLING to forgive her.
Since I started
homeschooling, my perspective has changed a lot. It wasn’t just that one girl
who made me insecure. There were a lot of things that broke me down. But now, I’ve
changed my way of thinking. God has revealed himself to me in MANY ways in the
last few years. I’ve made new friends, I’ve tried new things, I’ve gotten out
of my comfort zone, and I’ve learned how to dream again. During the time where
I felt lost, and alone… I forgot how to dream. All I ever thought about was how
sad I was. But once things started getting better, I remembered how much I
liked being a teenager, and how much I loved life. Now, I dream BIG!!
Overall, I’ve learned that
it’s true… People DO throw rocks at things that shine. Yes, I’m different from
most girls my age. But I have Jesus on my side… and I live for him. Not for the
approval from people of this life. This is all just temporary. I’m choosing to
shine for someone that really cares about me… because although there are people
who don’t like me, this man, thinks I’m to DIE FOR!!! I’m choosing to SHINE for
JESUS!!!
So yeah, people will try
to get into my mind, and they’ll try to mess with me, and they’ll try to break
me down… but they WON’T succeed. So join me! Together, we’ll dream big!
Together, we’ll praise Jesus, the man who died for us. Together… we’ll SHINE!!!
